After two years of feeling like I have had no control over my life, this is my attempt at getting it back. And in an effort to sound the least cliché as possible, I'm just going to write like I'm talking out loud. I have always been an honest person who has not held back from things that I want to do. But you know the story, dating the wrong guy can hijack your life and derail you to the point where you don't even know how to begin to get back on track.
I started by picking myself up and moving back to Colorado after six months in Nevada all in the course of two weeks. Call it a character flaw, but when I make my mind up about something, I tend to act on it right away without much input from others. Leaving ended up being the best decision I've ever made and I'm certain that as time goes on, I will still hold that belief.
Not that I need to say this, but finding a job as a millennial is not an easy thing, especially with a degree in the arts. I settled in Nevada and I settled again in Colorado because money is a hell of a stressor and I needed it to live. But after four months at the job I'm at now, I don't want to continue living for the weekend. I'm too young to keep saying, "If I just make it to Friday..." That point of view is boring and a waste of time. It may be my millennial ideals talking, but I want to do something that doesn't suck the life out of me every day. So here I am, trying my hand at freelance writing. It's one of the only things that I've been good at my whole life and that actually makes me happy. If I could make my living off this, I think I could be happy and not have to drag myself to the end of every week. And this is the first time that I've actually felt excited about the prospects of my career in a long time.
It's a fact of life that the world is dying. Not trying to be dramatic, although I am a dramatic person. Life's too short and it might be even shorter now so why am I sitting here wasting time not being as happy as I could be? That was my thinking when I moved back to Colorado and I'm finally reapplying it now.
Taking a chance on myself might not pay off. But hey, we're all going to die anyway.
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